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Saturday, August 28, 2004 2 whole weeks in camp is utter bullshit. It's sadistic & inhumane & it's just...not right. Sigh...it's just me. I miss Daryl. I miss Daryl. I miss Daryl. I miss him so much I've got a funny feeling in my stomach whenever I think about him. It's totally depressing. :( Sweet lord, just 1 more freaking week. 1 more week 1 more week 1 more week... ~Sam~ Thrash-ed @ 8/28/2004 01:01:00 am [comment] *** Sunday, August 22, 2004
:: BOOKING IN ALREADY! :: Will catch up with you guys in 2 weeks time! =)
*hugs* Thrash-ed @ 8/22/2004 07:05:00 pm [comment] ***
:: Grrrarrgghh!!! :: I'm never gonna get used to this. Just met Samantha a few hours ago and already i'm missing her like there's no tomorrow. I know it sounds really exaggerated. I'm so freaking depressed right now, look at the previous few entries. . The trips down to Escape Theme Park, the movies, to wherever.. it just puts me down and i don't know, Its serves as a reminder of what the Army's depriving me of. What i really treasure the most.. Time spent together.. =\ so dramatic. But hey, every miserable god damned individual that has two dangly things in between their legs has to go thru this wretched phase at one point or the other in their lives. Might as well get it over and done with. But what i really want is to have someone there for me when i'm going thru this phucked up stage of my life, something to look forward to during my book outs, someone to just make me happy and all after all the time i spend on weekdays getting screwed and all. But sigh, it's really tough for the both of us. Especially just now when we had to say our goodbyes. It's damn blardy miserable knowing that we wouldn't be seeing each other again like for 2 entire freaking weeks. I'l never get enough of you! Really.. And i don't see a point in worrying about this whole thing, although i myself bother myself with all the 'what ifs' and all.. but yah.. it's really unnecessary, so don't worry so much right dear? =) You'll see. Everything's gonna be alright. (shucks, i keep saying this.. but hey.. everything IS gonna be alright) 'Glory of love' is really cool, it says everything i wanna say and all.. yup, it's a sappy love song but man, i can't help it! It's gonna be 2 whole weeks darling.. but i'm sure nothing's gonna happen. We're just being paranoid. I'll bring your photo with me wherever i go, i'll remember you going 'Daryl! finish your food! Finish it or else i'm not gonna talk to you' during meals, and i'll most definately think of you during my Physical tests and all.. cos if i don't make it in the stated timing or wadever, i've gotta stay back on weekends so yup, not gonna let that happen.. We'll, i'm gonna be thinking of you thruout the entire 2 weeks. Expect stacks of letters to come your way! =) oh see! the longer i stay in there, the more letters you get! not that bad aft all.. =D Missing you already.. *loud sigh* Tonight it's very clear
Cause we're both lying here There's so many things I wanna say I will always love you I would never leave you alone Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret It breaks my heart to see you crying I don't wanna lose you I could never make it alone I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of We'll live forever Knowing together That we did it all for the glory of love You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all I'm always strong when you're beside me I have always needed you I could never make it alone I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero Your've been dreaming of We'll live forever Knowing together that we did it all for the glory of love It's like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago Just in time I will save the day Take you to my castle far away I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that your dreaming of We're gonna live for ever Knowing together That we did it all for the glory of love We'll live forever
Knowing together That we did it all for the glory of love We did it all for love Glory of Love - Peter Cetera You're all mine Samantha Lim Xin Yi.. no room for negotiation. I'm a selfish prick. Let's just make it stay that way.. =) *squeeze*
Thrash-ed @ 8/22/2004 05:19:00 pm [comment] ***
:: Fucking Hell Hole ::
4th of August! Enlistment Day, sheesh, been dreading that day since.. since.. EVER. It felt pretty normal, i wasn't the least bit excited, was very much reluctant in fact. Was texting Samantha on the mobile in the car all the way till the time i actually surrendered my phone. And YES, i hafto freaking surrender my phone.
So yeah, Day One Sucked, so did Day 2, and 3, and 4, and 5. Well, erm.. camp basically sucks luh, cept for the booking out part. The training and tekan and all is pretty fine with me really, it's just the 'no phone calls until last parade' policy that's killing me! and we don't even get to use our phone after the last parade, we're only entitlted to like 2 - 3 mins of phone calls in the admin office.. like.. wtf!? and the queue's always freaking long. so yah.. it's really tough, psychologically.
I think i'm sucha lucky bastard. Cos you see, Recruits hafta go thru this 2 weekend confinement thinggy? so yeah, i booked in on the 4th, and booked out on the 9th. Then the 2nd week, i booked out on the 15th again cos of ma graduation and now the 3rd week, it's my official book out day! so here i am! haha, no confinement at all.. but oh wells.. it's kinda complicated.. i'm blabbering. And LIFE IN CAMP'S PHUCKED UP! no handphone, no soft drinks... ok, no handphone's bad enough.. who cares bout the soft drinks.
I'm like constantly writing letters during free time to ma dearie, cos that's like the only way i can sorta like 'communicate' with her that kinda thing.. so yah.. wrote and wrote and wrote and wrote.. miss her so much! i can never get use to this shit. We used to meet up almost everyday, like 8 out of 10 days, and now? we meet up say.. once out of 7 days! cold turkey cold turky. *gobbles* o_O? k not funny.
Oh wells, i was freaking miserable on the first day of enlistment, VERY VERY miserable. Thought about Samantha thru the night, it's really sad, and now i'm like thinking bout her at least every single half hour. Be it whether i'm in the loo, marching, getting 'screwed', pt sessions, route marches, runs, lectures and all.. everything.. haha, everything just reminds me of her.. planes, trans island buses, pasta, green peas, unfinished food, stars.. EVERYTHING! =\ freaking govt tryin to pry us apart. like i've said.. The Govt can try.. but it ain't gonna work. =)
Ok, i'm damn tired, don't feel like blogging nemore. Well erm.. bottom line is, the training and stuff's fine.. it's just the part where i get to have like only 2-3 minutes of phone convo with my dearie. So yah.. =\ soon eh soon.. After my POP, hopefully i'll be granted the privilege to use the mobile or sumthn..
I miss you so much it's freaking torturous, but i believe.. absence makes a heart grow fonder! so yes! i'll see you when i book out on the 4th! Happy Monthsary darling! =) Insecure? heh, *smile* you're just being paranoid.. =] i wouldn't... you're my precious, aint gonna let this whole thing drift away or anything.. you gotta get rid of those insecurities and trust me and you yourself also alright? =) Love ya. *hugs!*
Well erm, if you didn't catch no nothing bout what i said.. nevermind eh? cos seriously, my mind ain't functioning properly right now so yup.. Oh yes, and forgot to add, met Samantha after every book out so far! haha, but it's not enough! it's never enough..
Thrash-ed @ 8/22/2004 12:24:00 am [comment] *** Thursday, August 19, 2004 It was Daryl's birthday yesterday. & our monthsary. But he was stuck in camp. :( This sucks. But never mind, he's booking out on Saturday. Tolerate, tolerate. Patience is a virtue. ~Sam~ Thrash-ed @ 8/19/2004 11:54:00 pm [comment] *** Friday, August 13, 2004 Daryl's gonna book out on Sunday again! Haha...this time, for his graduation ceremony. Fan-bloody-tastic. Or I would have probably died. Mope in, mope out. All this moping is sad, really. & I'm attending his graduation ceremony! :) His mom asked me to go so yepz! It's at Mandarin & I assume it's all gonna be posh & all. Gah. Those places are damn intimidating...huge pillars, staff dressed smartly without a lint on their uniforms, highly polished floor you can see your reflection in. Whoa. Ah gee. The irony. Daryl refuses to speak Mandarin to his bunkmates in camp & he's gonna book out of camp on Sunday to go to Mandarin! I'm so lame. ~Sam~ Thrash-ed @ 8/13/2004 09:56:00 am [comment] *** Sunday, August 08, 2004 Hah! I fixed my problem of logging out. So there, Mr Blogger! This is for not replying to my e-mail! *blows raspberry* Anyways! Anyways! I'm supposed to help Daryl blog but I had some disagreement with Mr Blogger but yeah, it's all resolved now. Dum dum dum. Daryl's been in camp for 5 days! Who misses him? Ok, raise your hands. *raises hands* Well, I do. Geez. NS is evil. They allow like, a minute conversation at night. Well, that's a lot, thank you very much. GEE! Gah. He'll be allowed out tomorrow though. For a rather short period of time, in my opinion. But that's better than nothing of coz'. Poor him. We're all out here while he's suffering in camp with his bunkmates who are the epitomes of ah bengness or something. Ok, he didn't exactly say that but he did say that they seem to only converse in Chinese. That already accounts for the whole ah bengness isn't it? I'm just being judgemental because poor Daryl can't speak Chinese for nuts (ok, maybe he can but I'm just exaggerating a little) & he's being all anti-social in there. Bah! Wouldn't do good for him to be anti-social right? He'll be like really miserable in there. Oh wait. He already is. ~Sam~ Thrash-ed @ 8/08/2004 11:28:00 am [comment] *** Wednesday, August 04, 2004
:: 4th August ::
This is it, 4th of August, Enlistment Day.. Grarr!!! As you can see, i'm still as reluctant as a week or 2 before. It's quite obvious that my previous attempt to find some nincompoop to take my place in the Army together with a lump sum of... 50 bucks.. came to no avail. And the Sex Change idea was just too troublesome. (Nah i'm kiddin) Might as well just fuck it and enlist.
Some part of me's a lil glad that this whole NS crap's starting.. get it over and done with kinda mentality. But then again another part of me just wants to spend more time with everything else.. like.. my girlfriend. But sigh.. getting born in Singapore's really tough.. NS and COE? wth.. that's like any guys' worst nightmare. (Not really, i'm just being materialistic) *shrugs* But hey, look on the bright side of this whole NS thing. i'll be earning money of my own.. for once! what.. 300 bucks a month?
Mum and Dad insisted on sending me over.. told em not to but ehh, oh well.. send me then.. i'll probably be left out or sumthn when they give time to the enlistees to say goodbye to their family and i'll be left standing there twiddlingm ma thumbs staring at.. erm... dust.
Anyways', Samantha (wait, this sounds so weird). Dearie came over t' help me pack ma bag and stuff, okay, she's damn scary.. the moment she came to my place the other time.. she started packing my room. And i was like 'Ah! what are you doing!' it's okay! the layer's of dust have been there since... ever! my wardrobe's chaotic! but that's the only way i'll fine my clothes! my floor's dirty! don't hafto sweep!, the plate's there with crumbles on it, but there aren't any ants! so it's also okay! but she ended up dumping almost everything from my wardrobe and started re-folding them and back into the wardrobe it went? haha.. gosh.. but it's really okay.. i find my clothes better that way. *hugs* Oh yeahs, back to today. dearie came over to help pack ma bag.. but we ended up watching vcd, eating some tako pachi and sweet secrets thinggy and playing Vice City on her laptop. And of course coupled with some assurance here and there. Everything was okay what... It wasn't as sappy and depressing as we thought it would be =D but yeahs.. everything's gonna be fine. *smile* See you on National Day alright? *Smoochies!*
I'm gonna miss so many things! I'm gonna miss waking up late, the computer, my freedom, ma friends, ma Playstation and most of all my DARLING! ARGGH!! Well, actually no, i'm just gonna miss my Darling.. and my bed *grumble* I'm gonna spend every book out day i have with you. Nope, No room for negotiation.. *smile*
I'm .. Missing you already. I think i should just move into Bukit Panjang and bunk in with you or sumthing.. or maybe you shift over to Sin Ming eh? know why? Cos Bishan rawks and they've got Pastamania here... =p *smooches* Lub u
Thrash-ed @ 8/04/2004 01:03:00 am [comment] *** Monday, August 02, 2004
:: I ROCK! :: Sorry, being spastic here but woohoo! I fixed up the Flooble Chatterbox & I managed to get your archives back! Chumpion! *waves to imaginary crowd* Hello? It's once in a while I get things right so let me indulge! GEE! Anyway hun, *muackz* See ya tomorrow! :) ~Sam~
Thrash-ed @ 8/02/2004 12:36:00 am [comment] *** Sunday, August 01, 2004
:: Es-ca-pe ::
Went down to Escape Theme Park together with my dearest today morning.. She was so looking forward to it, so i was like bah.. haven't been there so, might as well.. I was greeted by Ahtnamas at Ang Mo Kio Mrt Station with a black top and a red shorts and trainers. And for the first time, i seriously thought of myself as a paedophile. =D but nay.. she looked good nevertheless.. had to refrain from laughing and all.. Grabbed lunch at White Sands and headed down t' Es-ca-pe Theme Park, was actually a short walk from Pasir Ris interchange.. *shrugs* oh well.. The bus rides today were different tho.. =D she didn't sleep.. (as much), was a shocker haha! she was probably pre-occupied with some other stuffs.. bah Escape's terrible! ok it wasn't.. but one of the rides was.. 'The flipper' if i remembered correctly.. it almost made me puke.. and i've never puked after riding on some ride or summat ever.. that was really really close.. was ma-bok.. wanted to like just grab a seat, drink some water and get lost haha.. was really really terrible.Oh, the Pepsi revolution was quite shioken-ning as well as the Viking. That's about it.. the Roller Coaster in the Dark fuckajig should be renamed The torture Chamber on wheels or sumthn.. both of us came out with bruises and all all over the place.. they go like probably 30km/h and go on freaking 90 degree turns back to back.. fookin hell.. and i'm still giddy and bruised all thanks to the Death Coaster and the stupid spinning flipper ride. There's this inverter tho, she claims that it's the best! but it was closed for maintenence.. too bad! =D i was secretly grinning inside la haha, i don't wanna go for this kinda giddy giddy stuff.. i'll freakin vomit in front of you! quite unsightly.. Headed back to Upper Thomson for Prata.. was fab as usual.. should go down to the one at Bukit Timah probably on Monday or sumthn.. heh, i'm gonna stuff myself with all the good food before i get stuffed with all those condemned Army rubbish.. but then again.. Army's food not too bad.. it's just a common misconception. Dropped by my place aft that.. played PS2, (Spiderman 2, Need for Speed Underground 2, Ace Combat 4 and erm, Winning Eleven 7) I'm listing them down as proof. Or else Kian Gap's gonna come up to me and go.. 'Aye brother.. what did the both of you do the other time huh?' *cheeky look* Then i'll be like 'Nothing! watch DvD!'. Oh wells, I'm gonna freakin force myself to enjoy the last 2 days of my civilian life with dearest and then into the Army i go.. and hopefully get a 9 - 5 deskjob.. =D i can't be bothered anymore. Control Control Control Control.. Almost lost track of time today eh? ha! *snuggles* Thrash-ed @ 8/01/2004 01:29:00 am [comment] *** |
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