Wednesday, March 14, 2007

All of a sudden,

I realise...

that...

There're so many things i wanna do.

I'm thinking of taken up French lessons as a 3rd language. (Or for my case, it'll be my 2nd lang. since my mother tongue sucks huge time. I think it's not even Basic Chinese, it's probably just Conversational Chinese. =D)

There's drumming lessons that i was suppose to sign up for since O.R.D. but haven't got to doing it, but that's only because of my procrastination skills thank you very much . But Hey, i've got my name on the waiting list in one of the schools though... which means i tried.

Then comes polo training. To go or not to go.. Well, trainings are on sundays, and sundays are unofficially my 'off-days'. But i seriously need to work out more.

To chiong for work and do more OTs? or probably not.. i need a life.. but i also need the cash. DOH! Oh well, we'll see how it goes.

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At least i managed to get a few things done..

hmm.. or probably not...

i should start. =D

I think i need to revamp my blog. And probably blog more often.... and why does my Chinese name sound so strange? Hmm...

Thrash-ed @ 3/14/2007 10:28:00 pm [comment]

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Sunday, November 26, 2006

Hey guys,

Just so that you know.
I'm still alive.

I've got a kid now.. Thanks for all the support that you have all given to both Sam and I.










Nah i'm just kidding. I'd be murdered by her dad by then. I'm blogging ONLY because she is starting to make noise. Quite impressive.. hahaha, after how many months. Oh well!

Just a lil update here.

1. I'm still alive...
2. I'm part-timing and studying at the same time. (so hardworking i am)
3. I am still very much in love with my girlfriend of coming 2 and a half years.

so there!

I blogged!

Bye! (for another 6 months)

Thrash-ed @ 11/26/2006 10:36:00 pm [comment]

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Sunday, June 18, 2006

HAPPY 23rd MONTHSARY BABY!!

To all those who thought Sam and I wouldn't last.. It's coming 2 years and..


what was that again you were saying about what? army? relationship? difficult? what?


screw you.

Thrash-ed @ 6/18/2006 08:40:00 am [comment]

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Friday, June 02, 2006

I remember the day of Enlistment.. the 4th of August 2004.

Dressed in my blue polo t-shirt and s&k jeans my baby bought me.. together with my parents in the car.. sending me off to a place that was gonna rip me off my freedom.. turn me into a man they say.. another phase in life.. a singaporean males' life.

There there was i lying on bed at 6am in the morning.. thinking through everything.. all my insecurities.. How's my girl gonna do? Will we last? What's gonna happen to my social life? Are the people in camp gonna be nice? Am i going to come out in one piece? Why can't i turn back time and never have to enlist? And how much do i actually get paid ah??

But i know all those are just superficial.. No matter what i do, no matter how unfair i feel it is to be a singaporean male, how i fear for anything that's going to happen between samantha, my girlfriend of just 2 weeks and i? And after all those counting downs to enlistment day.. It's THE DAY. I'm sorry if i make it sound so dramatic. On a sidenote.. totally anti-climatic.. Er, my girlfriend always complain say.. you guys keep complaining about army.. you think we girls don't suffer? we girls get cramps and pms all every month.. for 2, 3 millions years.. which would you rather?

Then i enlisted..

Mom & Dad were ushered to take a tour around the camp, briefed on the bunk, facilities, environment and such.. Mom came down later and happily told me... 'Son, i know where you're going to sleep in.. bunk 6'. She seemed so excited that they managed to put me into one of the rooms when there i was hoping that they didn't.. hoping that they forgot all about me and just hoped that i was just a mistake so that i can just leave that place but no.. My name on the door of the bunk my mom saw.. was the place where countless push ups, tekan sessions, standby-bunks were going to take place very soon.. probably the next day of enlistment.

And my whole 1st day of army wasn't a very good experience.. I had to see my mom leave me into the hands of the army.. i swear you can feel your freedom just leave together with your parents.. the moment you surrender you freedom.. which actually comes in the form of a card.. the card affectionately known in the army as the PINK IC.
Anyway, talking about experience.. first day of army sucked.. coz I was the BMT batch.. The army actually works this way. If you're fit enough and meet a certain standard.. You'll be classified into the BMT (Basic Military Training) batch.. If not.. you'll be in the PTP (Physical Training Phase) batch where they'll enlist earlier, probably a month earlier and basically just build up on fitness before the rest of the gang, namely the BMT batch joins them..
So when i finally reached my bunk after dragging probably 30kg of army equipment in the duffel bag.. i was feeling mighty pissed knowing that i'm going to have to shave my hair in an hour or 2 and i'm bloody shag after dragging that load up 4 freaking storeys.

And i had a really ah beng looking recruit as my bunkmate. Great.

So the days went by.. Early mornings.. 5 Basic exercises before breakfast.. Endurance runs.. Drills.. Discipline.. Yes Sergeant No Sergeant, Purple Lights, Range, SOC, IPPT and of course all the extras and informal punishments, all the disagreements and also all the brothers made having gone through shit and all together.

I think it is really through army.. having to go out in the field together with them will you really know a persons' true character. It is when you're totally shag out of your balls, it's raining, you're in a lousy basha with gooey mud flowing in.. frogs croaking all over and trying to get that few winks before your sentry duty starts.. and knowing that there's going to be an attack on your position that night..

The feeling sucks..

And in the blink of an eye.. Hey.. It's 12.28 3rd of June 2006. The day I've been looking forward to since the day of my enlistment.. The day I've been writing down on my Soldier book.. the numbers 030606.

I know the numerous times i've been complaining about the army fucking me up.. screwing up my life.. I'm not saying that army's not that bad because army is exactly what you think it is.. regimental, duties, extra duties, hierachy. But having gone through all that I would say what every other ORD personnel will say.. It's definately an experience worth going for.. I know all you In service people are like.. ahh fuck.. don't believe this dumbfuck but hey.. you'll know what i mean when your time comes la.. idiot.

And also i remember the few days before enlistment when Samantha and I would just go to this quiet corner and talk.. talk about our worries, about why I had to leave her alone, about us, about what is to happen having spent every single day with each other before enlistment and having to spend only 2 days a week with each other after enlistment, the fear of having to let go, fear of complications, worry about whether things will work out, if we'll last through that 2 years, or will it just be a 2 month thing.
Maintaining a relationship isn't easy.. let me just make that point clear. We did have our disagreements and all.. how especially insecure i feel when i'm overseas and if she's spending time with her guyfriends. But all these were just part of the learning experience in life. Some couples would've parted with our given situation.. some wouldn't.. some wouldn't have endured the loneliness and amount of time the guy is spending with her.. But we did..

Just like when we were having one of the conversations of whether we'll last and all.. And since i was the more optimistic one about the whole thing.. Remember what i told you?

I told you not to worry. It's just 2 years. It'll be over before we know it.. I'm sure we'll last.. We're strong enough.. The army's nothing.. We'll make it through.. And that I'm gonna tell you on the 3rd of June that i'm right.. We'll still be happily blissful and all together.

And my girlfriend of 2 weeks is now my girlfriend of close to 2 years...


It's the 3rd of June 2006 today baby..



I told you so.. =)

I love you.. Still.. as much as i ever have.
And yes, i cried on the first night of enlistment cos i missed my mom and my girlfriend.. =p

And oh I forgot to do the one most important thing...

Heh..


ORD LOH!!!!!!!!!!

Thrash-ed @ 6/02/2006 11:54:00 pm [comment]

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HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY THERE ALLL YOOOS!!!!!

-pulls cobwebs apart-

Sorry for the disappearance for the past 3 years.. Heh.. It seems i have perfected the skill of 'evading blogging'. Cos my girlfriend probably gave up bugging me and of course i've noticed that she isn't blogging so frequently also la.. seems like i'm getting to her.. muahahaha.. what powerful influence i am..

I don't know where i'm gonna start since i haven't been blogging for how many years.. so i'm just gonna jot down everything that comes into my head..

I've been school searching for the past month or 2.. contemplating between business or mass communication and also prestige or results.
It's very simple.. It's either i go for a bachelors in business and screw it up.. (coz i suck at math) or.. go for a bachelor of arts in mass communication.. And since i ruled out business coz it's probably gonna be such a bore doing it.. i just settled for mass comm.
And then came the problem of finding the perfect place to do my degree.. There was sim, tmc, mdis & psb. So came the question of prestige.. Prestige as in a local and global context.
Because sim is definately more recognised in singapore.. but the degree it offers is from RMIT and yes rmit is good but the degree offered's 'uniquely offered ONLY in singapore'. And from the way it sounds i reckon it ain't such a good thing after all.. since people are looking for a degree that has students taken it on the ACTUAL campus itself.. And if Singapore's the only place with the degree.. it's like some rubbish bin title rmit came up with and expect singaporeans to take it up thinking that it's a degree afterall.. so screw that.. Not taking that up.. and it's part time.. Bah.

So came tmc.. tmc is well, not as good. when i say that i mean the school isn't as good and more importantly the lecturers. I heard they don't know nuts. But! tmc is the lias for Monash. And monash is like the 5 star university. So yeah.. since i don't think i'm going to do well with such lecturers.. i decided to pass.

And then psb.. They had a fixed major.. pr and communications i think.. not really sure.. but i didn't want to specialise in anything just as yet.. So there.. striked out.

Then came MDIS, didn't hear fantastic opinions for it actually but it was good enough.. since it is an establised school.. facilities are there.. unlike tmc which has only a library the size of my toilet.. so it's considerably good as compared to tmc.. and also lecturers for their degree programme are all flown in from the actual campus in US itself. And also a trip down to the US for the last 3 weeks of the degree is a compulsory thing.. heh..

And my girlfriend's going with me.. -grin-

We wouldn't be naughty i promise.. As in.. Yes it's an educational trip.. We're just gonna study study study.. that's what we'd be doing.. learning.. muahaha.. oh fuck.. just shut up daryl.

That's all for the academic part..

I've been exercising.. or rather.. trying to exercise lately with farhan.. but seems like the weather has a problem with me engaging in that kind of activity coz it freaking rains every single time i step out of my house. Let me show you the Math.

Step out of house = Rain / Cloudy
Sleep at home = Sunny like fuck

Shit ass!! Hate whoever's controlling those bloody clouds. I'm not the rain god, don't come to me!

And when i say exercise.. i meant running swimming that sort of stuff.. not that sort.. i know it sounded kind of wrong..

Anyways, i just got a job from starhub and my girlfriend's doing her ULTIMATE dream job.. site monitoring....... at neopets.

Wah lao eh.. It's like ME working for BATTLEFIELD.. just have to play 8 hours a day and i get paid.. And she doesn't even have to go down to her company to work!! just wake up.. switch on computer and work.. until your shift is over.. then go back to sleep.. what the hell!!?

But i'm happy for her la.. that way she can save up on transport and food and all.. and not complain that she's broke and has to wake up early and join the rush hour traffic and all. Oh well.. and the pay's apparently quite good..
But my pay's even better! but i can't tell you how much or you're gonna steal it from me.. hur hur hur.

I just blogged a bunch of nonsese la.. whatever

Thrash-ed @ 6/02/2006 11:29:00 pm [comment]

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Sunday, March 19, 2006

Forced to blog again. No escape this time though.

I've actually taken up rugby and am playing for my Formation in the Inter-Formation Rugby tournament. Had the first match against the Engineers last friday. Not bad.. we were thrashed 75-0 haha. Yup. But we expected like a 100+ - 0 score la so it was quite alright. Sides, the engineers took people out of service (i.e. NSman, ORD personnels) back to play for their formation. Out of a team of 15 people. They had 7 from the SAF Sports Association, SAFSA, and 2 national players. How fair. Oh well.

Anyways, didn't want to put it my all during the match since i've got the Jason Mraz concert to attend that night and also because it was a sure lose match. Hell, they scored the first try within the first minute of the game man.

Anyways, headed home, changed up real quick, met Sam and then headed off to meet Vidhya. Her favourite person in the whole world.. as according to her anyways. Both Mraz freaks. They'll just go.. OHH! have you seen the poster of Mraz along the road in town? The ones hanging off the lampost and all? I just wanna take one home!! Whooot!! Then i'll just be there minding my own business.. trying not to get freaked out with both their scary idolisation behaviour and all.. But it was embarassing! Sam was going on and on and on about Mraz so loudly i swear i could feel people staring at us. Especially when the 3 of us were at the entrance of the Esplanade via Citylink. They had this small standing poster of the Mosaic Festival which actually features afew artiste, one of which is Mraz and both of them just RAN for the poster which had his face on it which probably was like only 10 by 10 cm big. AND THEY STARTED TOUCHING HIS FACE! Or maybe just Sam. What's wrong with them!! Freaked out, i just side-stepped and walked off real quick and hid behind a pillar till they were done. What's this? Some kinda obsessive idol worshipping? Blah.

I must admit that i was probably a little jealous and all when my girl was going ga-ga over someone else. But it's probably just harmless idol worship. But still! She's like Ahh! Mraz this and that then i'll just roll my eyes. Shall just let her be luh.
So! Made our way to the concert hall.. Watched the opening act by some local band named 'The Unexpected'. And then intermission, then came in Mraz and Toka aka Stevie Wonder lookalike.
Toka was really stoned at the beginning but he opened up after that.. Made a blonde joke that wasn't actually funny but everyone including myself just burst out laughing cos he did those bimbotic impersonations and yeah.. he's real funny.. And Mraz's just witty and funny and all and it's crazy how he comes up with those songs of his. And although i'm no big Mraz fan.. i like his music, i like him as a person, cos he's really smart and witty and lovable actually (hope it didn't sound gay) and i could tell that he really misses his girl.. whoever she is. Let's just hope they work out fine eh? Cos love IS a beautiful thing.. and not having to experience it.. is probably the biggest mistake of anyones life. I know that.. cos i've got my love right behind me! Lying on the bed.. although she forces me to blog and all.. but hiyah.. just give in la.
Anyway the show was great, never a dull moment, They sang, they cracked jokes, the audience loved it.. Everything was good.. better than the kitaro concert i went to last time.. almost fell asleep at that one. He had stage presence and all.. Good, Great, Amazing, Mind-blowing, WONDERFUL show i must say. Worth all that 90 bucks. =D

Sam spend 2 hundred million dollars buying Mraz merchandise anyway.. Crazy nutcase.

Saturday. went for Ian, my besterestest friend/buddy/brother's 21st birthday. He's the first among the whole bunch of us to turn 21. High flyer la i must say.. And i'm really envious of him, so successful, so good with whatever he does. And i'm just glad to be his brother also la.
Let's see.. we hated each other's guts at first.. Not each other actually.. it was just me la.. hated his guts.. his cockiness.. haha. But i've since got to know him better thru ncc and hey, we're best mates now. Share some really secretive stuff, which is probably deemed unforgivably sinful.. Not really.. but yah.. we share secrets but i haven't been able to catch up much with him la..
My brother's going to OCS. He got his posting just one day before his birthday celebration. What a gift from the Army eh? =D See? Told you my brother was a high flyer. That's why i'm so envious of him.. If only i had to chance.. but circumstances and all.. But i'm just really happy for my brother.. to have a stable girlfriend.. good life in the army, i hope, good prospects.. and all.. haha. Hiyah.. This is gay shit la brother.. if you're reading..

HAPPY 21st man.. And again.. i hope you'll enjoy my gift eh? Hahaha.. should be interesting..

Thrash-ed @ 3/19/2006 08:47:00 pm [comment]

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Sunday, March 12, 2006

Stole this from Chek Keong's blog.



Thrash-ed @ 3/12/2006 10:00:00 pm [comment]

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Alright, After all those waves of nags coming at me since Chinese New Years' Eve.. It has finally gotten to me.

OK. I SHALL BLOG.

Sheesh, This is really bad, i mean, it's bad enough to MAKE me blog. You guys don't know how much i hate blogging. Why? Because it's so taxing! You've gotta use soooo much of your brain. I'm in the Army! I don't USE my brain. I don't NEED to use my brain for goodness sake. Let it rest at home, in front of the computer, in front of the 'Battlefield' and 'Call of Duty'. =D Nah..

Anyway, here i am blogging again after 2 months. (Astonishing feat) Did i mention how much i dislike blogging? And how much it's take to actually make me blog?

Oh yes i did. How much will it take to make me blog. Let me see. She waves her hands in the air, body spasms, stamping & stomping her feet.. whines.. makes funny noises, whacks me.. All at the same time. She did all that on our way back from Greenridge, which is actually like 100m away from her place. She did that ALL the way from Greenridge. What a painful process. Sigh. And whenever i say there's nothing to do around here, like home and all.. she'll happily just say.. go blog! Wait hey. Go blog? It comes out easily from your mouth doesn't it. I've gotta put my fingers through a marathon whenever you say.. 'Go blog!' eh. *whacks* Yeah anyway. Just letting you guys know what kinda 'magic' actually made me blog. Get me to run man.. I'd willingly run. And she claims that i don't love her whenever i don't blog because i keep procrastinating and all. What? What kind of logic's that!? I'll blog a long one then.. for you to see.. Grr

Anyhows. I went to New Zealand for a Training Exercise, (What's up with the overseas trips anyway..) The numbers on the air tickets said SGD1000+ or something like that. Wtf!? Why spend so much money on me my Dear Singapore. Just give it to me and i'll work twice as hard in Singapore. =D Anyway, The trip was just a short one. 18 Days.. Not that short actually.
Well, we flew in early Jan and came back Just in time for Reunion Dinner. Anyway, Sam (Sam, is my girlfriend.. if you do not already know) was trying to go on about how much she's gonna miss me and all that and was already at the verge of crying.. =\ We do that all the time. The first India trip. She cried, cause we haven't been seperated for so long before. It was 17 days. Then came Thailand. She Bawled like Mad! Like seriously bawled her eyes out. And of couse i did too la, but i didn't cry as bad.. Of cos i didn't. She was putting images into my head la. How She'd be alone with no one to comfort if anything is to happen. =D Silly girl. And so Thailand was bad.. Cos it was a fcuken month long or more. So yeah. Few more days and i could apply for Thai citizenship. Anyway. With India and Thailand over, The only one left was New Zealand, So i thought, Since this is the last one, with no more in hand, it isn't gonna be as long. What the hell! Let's just make it a happy departure for me! Let's not cry and sob ever so miserably at each other and all.. And so we did. =) Ah c'mon. I'm gonna ORD IN ANOTHER MONTH OR SO.. We'd be used to this kind of things by now.. *smug*

But i felt so lost the moment i went through the departure gates la. Kept thinking of her, then called her and all already. Missed her so much! And the first day isn't even over. Such a softie.. But hell, i thought to myself. At least i'm on my way and getting it over and done with.

So! Landed in Auckland international airport probably around10am Anzac time? Stepped out into the open and was like.. What the fcuk. It's not even cold! The people that came here are fcuken exaggerating.. A*holes. Yeah.. Little did i know... Anyway.. Headed out for lunch at a Chinese restaurant.. -_- Hello, Majority of us ARE chinese, We're now.. in New Zealand.. Why aren't we having something ELSE for a change. We go to India we get Chinese food, we get to Thailand.. Chinese food and now New Zealand! ALSO chinese food. Why can't we get somethng exotic like kiwi.. (whoops) or something.. Just an example. Damn. Anyway. The journey to Auckland took 10 hours. 10 miserable hours. 10 hours of thinking.. 'how i wish i was on the plane right now heading in the opposite direction' and 'how i wish this whole thing will just fly by quickly so i can get back to my muah muah at home' (Sorry about the intimacy, not meant for you other people anyway.)

Following on, we travelled on by bus to the training camp for another whopping 7 hours. So we basically spent the entire day travelling.. Quite interesting actually. People in the bus (Most of them people i don't know of) were like.. OH LOOK! SUBWAY!! -_-" What the hell's their problem anyway.. They've got Subway in Singapore what! Crazy..
Anyway, i just spent probably 5 hours sleeping in the bus, nodding away, knocking my head against the glass window very violently whenever i doze off.. It'll be like the whole bus's silent.. then you'll hear a loud *THUMP* then i'll just sway away to the other side.. then few minutes later.. another loud Thump.. Some thought the driver ran over some poor animal. But who cares. I'm was tired.

So! Training camp was.. fcuked up apparently. Toilets were 200m away from the tentage. And from where we were, there wasn't shelter to ANYWHERE. not the cookhouse, (otherwise called the cooktentage) the brushing area, the portaloos or the showers. Showers were the furtherst. Imagine yourself wanting to shower at night. Oh, and Night ain't just night. I'ts FREEZING night. Like 5 degrees or something. RUN over to the showers 2million miles away in the dark, fcuken cold.. And worst thing is. Since there's limited warm water. If.. you're unlucky. You'll just end up bathing Cold water in 5 degrees temperature outside... Yah.. It happened to every single scrawny Singaporean there cos the fcuken heater broke down. Most of us didn't shower anyway. But i did... and regretted it.. Worse minute of my life.

Don't wanna talk much about New Zealand though. Cos it's damn draggy. Let me just summarise. Hmmm.. There were the people from the New Zealand Defence Force who came to join us.. Some of which who were casted as extras in 'The Lord of The Rings' as those Soldiers in Cool armour and all. Funny bunch. They are damn strong i tell you. Even the tiny ones. What the hell's wrong with them.
What else. Let's see.. Time difference was kinda hard to manage. Singapore and Anzac, With Anzac +5 hours faster. So Whenever i'm going to bed, My baby'll be somewhere in Orchard Road Shopping. -_-" Kanasai.
And erm. I wrote letters to her! 4 pages worth. Haha. Oh well, better than noting.
And last but not least, what New Zealand's famous for. It's Scenery. It's really beautiful. Nothing like anything that i've seen. The sky was damn clear and i could see every single star there was and fcuk, even the milky way i could see.. Then there i'll be thinking.. If only i'm with my Girl.. Then we'll just remember that moment as the most beautiful moment in our entire lifes spending time with each other under the clear sky. FWOAH! It's GREAT! I'll go there and honey-moon!

And time the time came for me to fly back to Sing-a-pore! Finally, the long awaited day. Oh yes, i forgot to mention how lousy the Airline is. I Shall not say which one but i'll just tell you how it's like. Airplanes now.. have got what. A tv screen in front of you isn't it? One inidividual one. And some, has got On demand movies. Or games, Or music. Or flight information. You know what my flight has? Nothing but a projector. Ha Ha Ha. So for 10 hours on my way to Auckland, i was quite an annoyed little Singaporean. But on the way back i just couldn't care less. I just hoped the plane'll just go MACH 5 or something. The sooner i'll get to see my BABY at the airport waiting for me!! =D

So yeah, Landed, Rushed off to find my baby, didn't even go to the Duty Free Store, just went right through the sliding doors and out to find her. But to no avail! Cos the flight was delayed due to some faulty engine, i called her from Auckland and told her to come like 45mins late. But Somehow or rather, we reached Singapore just 15 minutes late. So yah. Anyways, Saw her, Hugged her, Kissed her and made passionate love in the airport..

No i'mjust kidding.. What.. I can add a little spice into my story can't i? So we went home, unpacked and caught up with everything, New Zealand, Singapore and whatever that needs catching up with and went to bed... Yup.. Jet Lag. =D

So yay, Post NZ.

Chinese New Year was spent without my parents cos they've decided to run away from all the ang baos and go honey moon in Japan. naughty people. Haha. But at least they got to enjoy themselves eh? Anyways, I had the car all to myself. Muahaha. Nothing much la actually. Went visiting as per usual, My maternal side only actually. Cos i followed My baby with her family over to JB to visit HER relatives. Quite an experience actually. All the Kampongs and all.. Extinct in Singapore. Except for maybe 1 or 2. That was about it for Chinese New Year. =p Short one. heh

Valentines day! i bought a stalk of rose for everyone in the family, My mom, my sis, my 2 godmas, my grandmother, her mother and all. All except for my girlfriend.. cos she said she didn't like them. Haha. Nah.. But seriously. I thought of getting her a bigger bouquet of flowers but they were all so freaking hiked up. I thought i could just get those with bears in it kinda thing. But V.day came and i had no flowers. Cos i was suppose to meet Desmond on V.day morning to go do some stuffs, So i thought i could get the flowers then. But he cancelled the thing and i ended up with no flowers. Then i thought i could make a quick one down to junction 8 to get some.. but i don't know why.. i ended up at lornie road.. on the way to go pick her up. Then i'm like. OMG, i'm fcuked.. But just decided to tell her the truth anyway. It's the thought that counts! =p
But i got her a rose after that to make up for it la...

Okay, This is quite a long blog isn't it. Can i stop now? =I'll continue next weeek la...
Pleeeaaasseeee......................

Ok nevermind. i'll just post. HAHAHA

Thrash-ed @ 3/12/2006 11:06:00 am [comment]

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Saturday, March 11, 2006

This blog has been rendered useless because I can't even get him to blog.

~ Sam

Thrash-ed @ 3/11/2006 12:34:00 pm [comment]

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